Welcome to A Disordered World, an online magazine created by a veteran journalist, devoted to personal columns and investigative stories about the experience of “mental illness,” the flawed treatment delivery system, and the invisible oppression of those labelled “mentally ill” – of which the creator happens to be a member. Learn more. 

The Challenges of Change

September 28, 2016

I’ve been working on change lately. I thought I’d been giving it a pretty good go for years – I’ve been through so many, countless programs and therapists. But real change, in the real world, I’m learning, is a lot harder, and involves some very different strengths, tools, and tactics, than I realized. I… Read more

The real Hope from Arkansas, unexpectedly reignited

July 29, 2016

I haven’t put much put stock in “hope” lately. I’m 42, an unemployed, former journalist, poor, and I jumped off my apartment roof last fall, to what I thought would be my death. I’ve long been considered “mentally ill,” I still want to die, and now also live with what may… Read more

Suicide: America’s Grim Bellwether, Part 1

May 27, 2016

Following is Part 1 of my chapter on the socio-politics of suicide for the forthcoming, 3rd edition of “Community Mental Health: Challenges for the 21st Century,” edited by Jessica & Samuel Rosenberg. If you are interested in reading the rest of the chapter, please consider purchasing the book (I receive… Read more

No room in the inn: Suicide survivors’ social, and emotional, wasteland

December 23, 2015

I won’t be celebrating much this Christmas – even though I know I should. And the New Year will bring me no hope for fresh starts, resolute changes, nor a healthier life. Such hopes started dying long ago, and were permanently extinguished October 23, when I tried to take my life… Read more

Mass Shootings’ Most Invisible Victims: The Severely Mentally Ill. We are not the Villains.

October 14, 2015

Mass shootings’ most invisible victims: the severely mentally ill. We are not the villains. Three…. Two… One…. BOOM. That’s about how long it takes for the airwaves to explode with language – from TV reporters, political pundits, victim families, and our elected leaders – which slander the mentally ill following… Read more

The Anna Westin Act vs. the Recovery Model, and why eating disorder clinicians need to take off their blinders and catch up to strengths-based, peer-support approaches used with all other severe mental illnesses

September 15, 2015

Dear Readers, I am writing to let you know that, to my deep regret, I must indefinitely suspend the investigative reporting and writing on eating disorder treatment and other, mental health issues I’ve been publishing on A Disordered World. Since winter, I’ve poured hundreds of hours of unpaid work into… Read more

From self-harm to self-empowerment: Using words & activism, not body, to be seen and heard

September 5, 2015

In this first piece for the online publication, Mad in America, I reflect – through feminist and constructivist, social psychology lens – on how using my body in efforts to be heard, seen, and fight against prejudice, I become an unwitting collaborator in my oppression. I look to re-storying (also… Read more

Buyer Beware – Behind the Smoke-And-Mirrors: How Residential Treatment Is Being Sold as “First-Line” Treatment For Severe Eating Disorders Despite Research Backing; The Problematic Variation In State Licensing Standards and Oversight Across States; and Whether Accreditation is Really a Remedy to the Lack of Quality Control

July 25, 2015

Part 2 of an Investigative Series The first thing anyone sees when they walk through the doors of a residential treatment center for eating disorders is a sub-circle of women who – like me – have already been through several other programs. And who, like me, have been told by… Read more

The Eating Disorders “Residential Treatment Industrial Complex”: Harm or Help? Part 1 of an Investigative Series

June 27, 2015

How An Industry Which Claims to be the Solution for Women Suffering from Severe, Long-Term Anorexia May Be Doing More Harm Than Good, and Destroying Lives in the Process When I first entered the residential treatment system, for anorexia, in 2004, I thought it would clothe me: with nourishment –… Read more

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