Welcome to A Disordered World, an online magazine created by a veteran journalist, devoted to personal columns and investigative stories about the experience of “mental illness,” the flawed treatment delivery system, and the invisible oppression of those labelled “mentally ill” – of which the creator happens to be a member. Learn more. 

The Challenges of Change

September 28, 2016

I’ve been working on change lately. I thought I’d been giving it a pretty good go for years – I’ve been through so many, countless programs and therapists. But real change, in the real world, I’m learning, is a lot harder, and involves some very different strengths, tools, and tactics, than I realized. I think the two hardest things … Read more

The real Hope from Arkansas, unexpectedly reignited

July 29, 2016

I haven’t put much put stock in “hope” lately. I’m 42, an unemployed, former journalist, poor, and I jumped off my apartment roof last fall, to what I thought would be my death. I’ve long been considered “mentally ill,” I still want to die, and now also live with what may be some sort of PTSD … Read more

Suicide: America’s Grim Bellwether, Part 1

May 27, 2016

Following is Part 1 of my chapter on the socio-politics of suicide for the forthcoming, 3rd edition of “Community Mental Health: Challenges for the 21st Century,” edited by Jessica & Samuel Rosenberg. If you are interested in reading the rest of the chapter, please consider purchasing the book (I receive no money from book sales); … Read more

No room in the inn: Suicide survivors’ social, and emotional, wasteland

December 23, 2015

I won’t be celebrating much this Christmas – even though I know I should. And the New Year will bring me no hope for fresh starts, resolute changes, nor a healthier life. Such hopes started dying long ago, and were permanently extinguished October 23, when I tried to take my life in a way I never … Read more

Mass Shootings’ Most Invisible Victims: The Severely Mentally Ill. We are not the Villains.

October 14, 2015

Mass shootings’ most invisible victims: the severely mentally ill. We are not the villains. Three…. Two… One…. BOOM. That’s about how long it takes for the airwaves to explode with language – from TV reporters, political pundits, victim families, and our elected leaders – which slander the mentally ill following mass shootings such as the … Read more

The Anna Westin Act vs. the Recovery Model, and why eating disorder clinicians need to take off their blinders and catch up to strengths-based, peer-support approaches used with all other severe mental illnesses

September 15, 2015

Dear Readers, I am writing to let you know that, to my deep regret, I must indefinitely suspend the investigative reporting and writing on eating disorder treatment and other, mental health issues I’ve been publishing on A Disordered World. Since winter, I’ve poured hundreds of hours of unpaid work into the research and writing of … Read more

From self-harm to self-empowerment: Using words & activism, not body, to be seen and heard

September 5, 2015

In this first piece for the online publication, Mad in America, I reflect – through feminist and constructivist, social psychology lens – on how using my body in efforts to be heard, seen, and fight against prejudice, I become an unwitting collaborator in my oppression. I look to re-storying (also known as “narrative therapy”) and … Read more

Buyer Beware – Behind the Smoke-And-Mirrors: How Residential Treatment Is Being Sold as “First-Line” Treatment For Severe Eating Disorders Despite Research Backing; The Problematic Variation In State Licensing Standards and Oversight Across States; and Whether Accreditation is Really a Remedy to the Lack of Quality Control

July 25, 2015

Part 2 of an Investigative Series The first thing anyone sees when they walk through the doors of a residential treatment center for eating disorders is a sub-circle of women who – like me – have already been through several other programs. And who, like me, have been told by the admissions coordinator that this … Read more

The Eating Disorders “Residential Treatment Industrial Complex”: Harm or Help? Part 1 of an Investigative Series

June 27, 2015

How An Industry Which Claims to be the Solution for Women Suffering from Severe, Long-Term Anorexia May Be Doing More Harm Than Good, and Destroying Lives in the Process When I first entered the residential treatment system, for anorexia, in 2004, I thought it would clothe me: with nourishment – mental, spiritual, and physical – … Read more

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